Some of you may remember Rock Pool and how I have mentioned their life changing training. What a journey I have been on…
I hope this visual I made helps:
I started as a client on the recovery toolkit course which was provided by Hull DAP. I connected with Sue who developed the programme. I attended the facilitator training which has lead onto speaking at this years roadshows about my experience.
I have never been made to feel inadequate whilst in the company of any of the Rock Pool team. I was always conscious when taking that first step to meeting Sue Penna and going on the training that I was going to be the survivor amongst the group, the person who has accessed services the other trainees provide. I admit I felt intimidated but in no means because of them, it was my own feelings and perhaps that perception of ‘them’ and ‘us’.
I can’t fault the support I have been given but also the professionalism as an equal. Ultimately I am, I am no different, I have just accessed everything a different way. Everyone’s journey is different.
I decided I wanted to share my talk with everyone and make a YouTube channel to go with it, because I have had it on my agenda for a while but just hadn’t the reason. I now have a couple of reasons and so my channel is born and my video on the Recovery Toolkit Course is for all to see. Please do comment on my video with your thoughts on the video and what I have to say, I do go into some detail of my journey.
Not only did I do this but I spent some time to myself, I had a meal with Sue and all guilt free. I used to find it difficult to enjoy myself and worry about my children and leaving my husband behind to do everything, it didn’t take me long to realise it was emotional baggage from that toxic relationship. I made sure that I had some calm journey time so I didn’t rush because my failing on events like these are that I make sure I go when the kids are in bed and accommodate for the guilt I had felt. I would then be incredibly exhausted and my supportive husband would continue to tell me to not be silly and next time book earlier. SO I DID!
I made my way to London and I needed to get to paddington for 4.30pm, I arrived at 12pm at Kings Cross and managed to fill it with meeting up with a fellow writer in South Kensington. I tootled around and then went to the V&A on my own. I had some much needed ME time. I was thinking that I would hate wandering around London on my own and felt anxious but I thought if I don’t want to I will just head straight to Paddington and find somewhere to do some work. NAHHHH I LOVED IT! I had that time I needed and zoned out having a look around the museum and even had afternoon tea with a pianist playing in the background. Talk about therapy.
I reflect a lot on life and this certainly was another turning point, being able to allow myself my own time, my time to enjoy, my time to do my own thing, my time to think, my time to simple be!
I continue to work on developing my self.
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